December 4, 2012 by Vicki
My Action Plan has been in force for approximately a month. It’s time to face the Piper and honestly access whether or not I have met my Plans and Resolutions. I find my Plans and Goals tend to overlap so I will focus on my Plans.
Plan 1: Walk the Lollipop (or up the stairs) twice daily with Lucy
I struggle with this requirement. Lucy is lucky if I walk her around the block twice daily never mind around the Lollipop or up the stairs. The worst thing is that it’s hurting me. I’m finding that I am losing less weight and generally feeling worse about myself. I stopped during the week where it never stopped raining (thank you hurricane) but there was no reason that I could not climb the stairs instead. I think I need to bring this down to once daily until I have built up the necessary energy to make it twice daily. I am concerned that twice daily will become impossible once I start working.
Plan 2: Eat a Healthy Diet
I have lived up to this requirement. Currently, I have lost twenty pounds in two months. I went from being 270 lbs to 250lbs. I have changed a lot of my eating habits although I still need more work. I find that it is a learning experience. I accidentally gave myself too much fibre in my diet and ended up getting fairly sick so I slid back into some bad habits that I need to break. My biggest concerns right now are breaking the pasta habit and cutting down portion size.
Plan 3: Keep a Food Diary
Plan 4: Research Wicca
I have been successful on this requirement. I am currently focusing on Gaian Wicca which I find most closely matches my own interests. I now have the Gaian Tarot which I have felt a very close connection with and have studied the guide book intensely.
Plan 5: Research Mythology
I have also been successful on this requirement as I watched and enjoyed Joseph Campbell’s The Power of Myth documentary. I find, right now, that I am much more interested in Wicca then in mythology and I don’t really have a problem with putting more emphasis on my research of Wicca.
Plan 6: Research Classical Music
I have been listening to a lot of Classical Music lately. I have not studied it as of yet but I am building my own interest and trying to determine if this is my interest of if it is an interest because of Grandpa. If it is because of Grandpa then it’s not me.
Plan 7: Find a Job
I am struggling with this requirement. I had an interview on Monday November for a position that I really wanted. From the description of the position, I believe that I would be proud of this job and could enjoy it. Unfortunately, they found a different applicant suited their needs better than I would have.
Plan 8: Write one Hub page a week
Plan 9: Write Bi-Weekly posts on all three of my blogs
I have been moderately successful. My “Life on the Ark” blog requires some more attention. I have failed to make regular updates to it but am starting to fix this trend. Otherwise, I have posted bi-weekly on Boudicabooks and Dreammirrors. I have changed the format of Dream Mirrors into a creative writing blog.
Out of 9 plans, I have successfully managed five requirements. I have been moderately successful at two requirements and completely failed at three requirements. I would like to have accomplished all of my plans by January 1, 2012. Finding a job is not something that I have complete control over but I can still give it my best effort.
Now let’s talk about my Resolutions.
Resolution 1: Be Vicki
Overall, I believe that I have lived up to this resolution so far. I have had occasional slip ups where I fell into a depression but I was able to fight my way back out again. Most of the accomplished plans fell into the category of being Vicki. I have changed my eating habits to reflect my personal tastes (i.e. I hate handling raw meat so now I use tofu.) I am changing my Dream Mirrors blog to more accurately reflect who I am.
Resolution 2: Be Happy
I have not lived up to this resolution. To be fair, I have had the shit kicked out of me this past month and a half. Mike and I were reassessed and told that we owed the government over $2500 between the two of us. At that point, we were already drowning in debt. I am also struggling with some familial disputes on various levels. So, all in all, I have had a hard time with this particular resolution.
Resolution 3: Just Get Up and Dance
I have lived up to this resolution. I use music and dance to keep my mood up and to keep me active. I have started listening to a lot more music again. I am rediscovering the joys of music and it is wonderful.
Resolution 4: Let Go of the Past
Resolution 5: Be Honest (even when it hurts)
I have lived up to this resolution. I tell others how I really feel about situations. Sometimes, I tell myself and Mike because other people do not want me to tell the people involved. My prerequisite for this is that it directly involves the person who is requesting my silence.
Resolution 6: Make my own Decisions
I struggle with this resolution. I try to make my own decisions but if it is really important, I always want a second opinion. It is a battle each time, but I do fight the battle. I don’t always win but I get points for trying right?
Resolution 7: Find and Pursue My Interests
Resolution 8: Cultivate Family and Friends
I am struggling with this resolution. I have reconnected with Amanda and am greatly enjoying having my little sister back. I have also recently reconnected with an old friend who I never thought to hear from again. However, I am struggling to reconnect with family members who appear to be uninterested. Recently, I have made some more progress but it is very slow going. Some members of my family and I just don’t seem to know how to talk to each other anymore.
Resolution 9: Don’t Take Shit from Anybody
I am struggling with this resolution. I have difficulty determining what shit is and what are normal life occurrences. I don’t take shit when I know it’s shit. I just have difficulty determining what shit is. Is this a common problem?
Resolution 10: Don’t Drift
I have lived up to this resolution. I do not spend hours daydreaming anymore. I have tried to live in the here and now. I am actively seeking employment. I still dream but I recognize that they are just dreams and not reality. I don’t expect to be totally happy all of the time at any point in my life. Happiness and Life just don’t work that way. I don’t think I would like it if it did.
Resolution 11: Be More Creative
I have lived up to this resolution. I have reincarnated Dream Mirrors to reflect a more creative outlook. I have also engaged with other types of creativity such as listening to my music. I would like to expand my creativity further to include knitting, colouring and possibly singing.
Resolution 12: Cut all activities that I do not enjoy
I have lived up to this resolution. I have cut out an assortment of activities that I used to pretend to enjoy so that I fit into a group. I no longer pretend and find that I actually have better relations with the group I was trying to belong to.
Out of twelve Resolutions, I have successfully lived up to seven of them. I am struggling with four resolutions and have not been able to accomplish one of my resolutions. I am surprised by these numbers. I thought I was doing a lot worse than I currently am. Considering I have until January 1, 2013 to accomplish my resolutions, I think I am on the right track again. I just have to stick to this. I also have to accept that some of my resolution I will not be completely successful with due to the actions of other people.
What do you struggle to accomplish in your life? Who or what stops you from being successful? What’s your Action Plan?